i am okay

First of all thank you to all of you who kept me in your thoughts and prayers and the many of words of comfort and encouragement.

Second-- my white blood cells came out normal yesterday (thank goodness) that was quite a scare. My iron levels are still dangerously low--so low they barely register-- crazy huh. oh well so i have to take 325 mg of iron with 500 mg of vitamin C three times a day (so pretty much i am gonna get constipated and i hate that) i go back in next tuesday to see if that is working, if it isn't then i will get an infusion. so i am not out of the clear yet.

okay thats the update today--- maybe i will write more later who knows.


I vant to drink your blood

Okay so today has finally arrived-- i slept alright last night considering that i have this doctor appointment that scared the crap out of me! I am getting blood drawn at this hematologist. My friend has the same doctor and she assures me that he is nice, and i totally trust her but why the hell can't he have his own office does he really have to work at the Huntsman Cancer Clinic? Does that ease my anxiety any less? NO! oh well.. afterwards i am going to verizon wireless to get the new LG NV2. I get it for an excellent price-- yay! i like to shop and spend money that i don't have when i become upset!

I have applied for several jobs last night because i HATE the politics that are going on out at Copper Hills Youth Center. Seriously it bugs me bad. Its not only the uniforms its the way some team leads are the CEO and COO pets and they get away with anything. Its also some of the therapists baby their clients and then tell us MHA's that they are good kids and never act up with them-- of course they don't act up with their therapists, the therapists see them twice a week for an hour a piece and maybe for group therapy once a week for an hour. The mental health associates see them from 8 to 16 hours a day-- grr it pisses me off. Oh well life goes on.

I have started drinking gatorade g2 at least. Hopefully this time Doty's father won't yell at me for sipping gatorade-- G2 HAS LESS SUGARS WILLY!!! okay anyways i love it its very tastey-- although my favorite gas station to go to doesn't have it so i am going to have to go across the street to get it-- dang gas stations.

okay well i am off to go get ready--- yippeee--- thanks for everyones' support.


photo bucket game

okay so all you do is go to photobucket.com (don't sign in) and then use the first page to describe the following--- DO IT!!!

What's your first name?

What is your relationship status?

What is your favorite color?

Who is your celebrity crush?

What is your favorite movie?

Who is your favorite disney princess?

Name a beverage.

Where is your dream vacation?

What is your favorite dessert?

One word to describe yourself.

I was born in:

My eye color is:

Last book you read?



So i am about to throw a major hissy fit! the following may sound like i am complaining and not able to be a grown up but really it royally pisses me off--

So my place of employment is apparently going to start making us wear uniforms--- now its not too bad just a polo shirt but dammit homegirl don't look so good in polos and as if my self esteem isn't low enough!!! I HATE THAT WE HAVE TO BE PUNISHED BECAUSE THERE ARE SOME EMPLOYESS WHO CAN'T KEEP THEIR BOOBS WHERE THEY ARE SUPPOSED TO BE--------AHAHAHAHHAHAAAAAAAAAAAAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAHHAHAHAHAH. i am sooo mad!

I need to find a new job but i like what i do and it i live so close to work-- i am truly in a dilemma.

well i need to go for now i might blog a bit more later..


today is a new day

yes i know two blogs in one week--- what is the world coming to? well in all honesty ever since i have had the news that i might have some blood disorder i have sat and done absolutely nothing-- okay thats a lie i went to work and then went to Price, utah to the wave pool. the luck of my family this week has been awful...

Tuesday: my sister had her car broken in to and the stereo stolen. the same sister lost her job for a stupid reason and the HR people didn't have the nerve to tell her the real reason. Tuesday was the day of my doctors appointment.

Wed: my nephew has to go back to the hospital because he has a blood clot and is peeing blood (he is fine) i hear that i need to go see a hematologist and then an oncologist. the doctor calls me at work of all places so i am a basket case.

Thursday: nothing to drastic happened on thursday-- oh wait i lied my brothers car gets broken into (may i remind you that it has nothing to do with my sisters car cause we live in seperate neighborhoods) his brand new football jersey gets stolen...

Friday: i was at work all day and had 2 restraints-- it was nuts.

Sat: my brother and i wake up to go to wave pool and meet the rest of the fam who were already camping there--- and we find that his car and our garage has been egged (WTF?!?!?) our neighbor cleaned it up for us since we have to run-- nice lady! while on our way to the wave pool we see dad gets pulled over-- luckily no ticket just a warning--i lauged.

Sun: i wake up at seven thirty to get ready for church only to fine out that it was stake conference--- boy i was mad so i went home to go back to bed...

today is a new day-- hopefully will be good- i am going for retail and getting my nails done therapy-- yay.

my hematologist appointment is next monday and i am trying my hardest not to have a heart attack over it--- wish me luck.

i have gotten rid of 4 or 5 boys this week because they are all after one thing and i am irritated and annoyed...so i have narrowed down the boys to 2 instead of 7-- man abeing a player is hard work..

well that sums it up for now-- i might add more a little later today--

have fun and keep smiling



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okay this is to those of you who point out to me daily that i haven't posted in over a month....

so last time i mentioned that life was coming at me fast and man did i ever put my foot in my mouth. July went i don't know where but i seriously don't think we had it this year cause its already AUGUST?!?!?!? STOP IT!

I tried out for American Idol-- had the time of my life i will have to post some pictures, oddly i didn't get any of me there which to some of you may come as surprise since i love taking pictures of myself! LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE IT!!! I didn't make it to see simon paula and randy but i did get to sing part of a second song, waited in line for almost 11 hours (actually we were sitting in seats) to sing for a total of 45 seconds, but had the time of my life. we sat by the coolest bunch of people and laughed all day long. look for the cross dresser on the auditions it was funny hes an idiot.

My youngest sister was baptized on the 2nd of August. It was awesome to see her go and do that, it made me think of my baptism day and how much i need to ship shape it up--- she wore the same dress the chelsey (my other sister) and I wore when we were baptized, my mom made it for me so it goes to show that she is an awesome seamstress.

Max is starting his senior year and he is so excited. he has grown up so much and is pinned to be an all start athlete if he just isn't so dang lazy--- he is good and sometimes lets that get him by instead of showing how good he is.

My dad is now the global director of the drilling company he works for so more traveling- he worked hard for his job and i am proud of him, i just worry that he lets the money thing go to his head.

I survived camping. only because we stayed at a place with flush toilets and a shower (my kind of camping). It was neat we went and saw the place of the crandall canyon mine disaster and i of course cried like a baby. SAD TIMES! its only because i worked in a mine so its some kind of secret brother hood we all have. we also went to a wave pool in price, actually we are going back there this weekend but i will driving down on saturday and coming back saturday night because they are camping the weekend in a place with no shower!!! YUCK!!!

Okay on the not so fun stuff -- i had blood work done this past week and my doctor calls me while i am at work to inform me that my blood cell counts are all sorts of out of control and that my iron levels are still low so he is reccommending me to a hemotologist and an oncologist. JUST GREAT. so meanwhile i am supposed to pull it together to help out the kids i work with so they don't know that there is anything wrong, i am freaking out- trying not to think the worst or cry my eye balls out. but really i am okay with whatever happens because i know i can handle it.. although i did have a good talk with the man upstairs last night and informed him that he has my attention. :) i am scared, mad, upset, nervous, worried, and a lot of other emotions. Well today is a new day so i need to get to work... doctor just called have an appointment on the 25th of august!!!! oye wish me luck

i will blog more often(yeah right)